fixing a broken heart? im through! :))

i want to release my feelings, even though its maybe 7 to 8 months late. you'll know what i mean later, i just can't tell it to a friend. oh, maybe we just don't drop by that topic, we don't want skirting the bush anyway just to talk about this. HAHA. but i just want to shout it out loud, you know. relief :)

it's more than a year now when i had love and lost it.i don;t wanna talk about this before cos it still hurts but now im more than willing to talk about it and let you know how stupid i WAS. yea! was! haha. cause im so better now :)))

when we broke up. dang! it really hurts, its killing me i thought.but that just what im thinking. REALITY CHECK: i existed for more than 15 years without him in  my life so most definitely i wont die if im not with him (guess what people? im still alive! haha) That was one of the darkest day in my life but my loving friends are always there for me, helping me through every trials that im encountering. we all know that i was just blinded by love thats why i still want him in my life so bad, i forgot  a bunch of people out there who loves me. yea! im so stupid! o dont even notice that there are friends who secretly love me, yea, they confess on me few months after we broke up (good thing its just on the phone! bcos i actually dont know how to react or what to say) That is when i realized that i was lucky and loved. But something in my heart keeps telling me that i still want him in my life, then i read a phrase that says: LOVE IS SUPPOSE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY, NOT STUPID. that phrase hits me, when that "ex" of mine gave me a hint about us being back together (he probably got jealous with those who confess. especially the other guy, that one of his closest friend. yea, his damn ego and pride is killing him. haha) i took the courage to reject him and told myself that its enough. i had a heavy feeling at that circumstance, i dont know if im going to regret it or what then i just let time heal my wounds. 

Someone told me to focus my attention to somebody else who loves me. But i absolutely doubt that idea because sure i need a distraction but im not using anyone as a distraction! i'll rather bury myself to work or something else because i dont want to use people. i dont want to hurt them!

Anyway, thats all in the past now. i laugh hard remembering how stupid i was fighting for a wrong love. well, they say that we dont stop loving someone. Once you love someone, you will forever love him but i do believe in a different manner. maybe you're just a little concern. yea! because LOVING SOMEONE OS DIFFERENT FROM BEING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE (got this from "a proscriptive relationship"! hahaha. but dont get me wrong, im not in love to anyone right now! haha

all girls out there! ask God's guidance when someone is courting you or you're attracted to someone. pray pray! pray! it sure works! God will give you signs how to handle this stuff, yea, God is a genius, i love him! :) And to those who are hopeless romantic. gag! you dont need to be, just pray and ak God for the right guy and God will surely reveal the right person under the right circumstances. so dont waste your time searching and dont bother putting your standards down. im doing this so that i wont fall for the wrong guy again! haha

~wait wait. how did i manage to compose a blog as long as this? well! lucky me! haha. my brother is not around. yea, he's a stupid if he's still up at this time. it's already 1:22am! haha.

need to go now. i don't proof read this and did not check out for wrong spellings. im in hurry. sorry. yea, i feel crazy now. cause im acting as if someone will actually read this !haha. 

GOODNIGHT :)

WENDY :D

my fantasies. weird?!

im reading novels from wattpad. i can't keep myself from not falling for Saxon. hahaha! how immature, right? also to Mr. Chris Heywood. here he is. dang. he is worth drooling for. haha. i don't want to sound a perv here! coz that's so not me! haha. but i have a crush on Chace Crawford and nothing's bad about it, SO BE IT. haha! i just felt improper thinking i like characters from a novel and meeting someone like them or whatsoever. i have read a lot of stories, so i know those are so impossible to happen for me but still hoping to find the right one :), definitely at the right time. :)) ok back to the topic. don't you think im quite weird? . haha.yes i know. stories are really getting too far under my skin. it makes me cry, laugh and giggle. hate my emotions. but they are good too at times. i know how to treat people based on their personality bcoz of my wmotions. why? i dont know either. anyway, i want to meet chace crawford, haha. or a little maybe, just a fraction of him will do, but that's impossible so POOR ME.


im always incoherent bcoz of my stupid brother.always walking here, looking at what im doing. hate him. haha.


im irritated right now. wanna kill my brother!!! ugh.
gtg and i have some dumb brother to chase. bye :)


really looking forward to the day that i can tell everything i feel! this is one of my fantasis, because my brother is such a jerk. i just think he won't give me any prvacy. argh!
--dy Ö

i miss school! ugh.

huh? haha. when i say i miss school, i mean my friends and the fun. not the the school and absolutely not the subjects! haha. i miss my friends so much! i miss the laughter and the constant chatting, i miss it all. but im so glad that im free of school works >:)


im enjoying my two months of vacation. i need to maximize my time to do everything i want because before i know it, classes will start again. but im BORED. CAUSE IM ABSOLUTELY DOING NOTHING AT HOME. haha. when i woke up about 10:30 in the morning, i'll eat breakfast then watch tv. then wash the dishes, little cleaning then watch movies, surf the net. then sleep. thats my daily routine! isn't it boring? nyahaha..
but ever since, this is what i wanted. away from school and the stress it brings to me (if it brings! haha). but when i asked for this, i did not asked for a boring summer. but i cant do anything about this, so i'll just look at the bright side of this! NO CALCULUS AND ACCOUNTING. bwahaha. that thought makes me go wild. hahahaha. em so happy! xD


hay! but i think, mamimiss ko mg aral pglipas ng panahon. pg May na. boredom will kill me.
bye for now! :)
may umaaligid dto sa bahay e. mabasa pa to! hiya much un! haha